Port Jackson from the air: looking east from Darling Harbour to Sydney Harbour Bridge and across Sydney Harbour, as it curves north (left) up to Sydney Heads - then out over the Tasman Sea.

Australia Day feelings

Today is Australia Day, and I have so many mixed feelings about it – about being an expatriate, and about the date itself.

Eating Beijing style noodles (炸酱面) with college friends.

Accepting the repatriation blues

This was the week I finally accepted something I already knew to be true, not just as an idea but as a reality. Repatriation is hard. It takes time – a lot of time. And there is no shortcut. It is challenging to invest in a place my heart is not attached to – my mind has been in the world that I have known and loved and invested in for more than a decade.

The End

A lot of people have made comments along the lines of “but you’ll be back”. I hope that’s true, but I don’t know for sure. It’s important to me that I close this chapter well, that I don’t leave things hanging. I need this to be a real ending.

Something new

While I’m not excited about leaving China, I am excited about WHY I am leaving. As surreal as it is to be leaving the world I know and love here, I want to continue to grow – which means being me in different places, doing different things.